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Jay Rapoport featuring Rachel Mylan - I Want To Be Forgiven

from Attitude of Gratitude by Jay Rapoport

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Based on Mishkan HaNefesh:Yom Kippur p293 Vidui reading published by CCAR Press

* Composed for a High Holy Days songwriting competition for adaptations of liturgy in the Reform movement’s new machzor. I leafed through every page of both volumes - Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur - before selecting a few texts to adapt. This was my favorite one.

* Written after a summer of serious introspection about the disconnect between the person I want to be and the person I sometimes am.

* Features my longtime friend and musical collaborator Rachel Mylan on duet vocals.

* Didn’t get selected for the compilation but we liked it anyway - this was the first song Zach picked to work on when we began the Ruach Rock 3 project together.

* Like many of the songs for this album, this was originally released online on my Facebook page

GRATITUDE REFLECTION: Reach out to someone you've hurt. You don't have to apologize, just reach out. Today. Right now.


"I WANT TO BE FORGIVEN" (by Jay Rapoport)

I did something wrong
I want to be forgiven
Give me the strength
To do what’s right

Because I was angry
Because I didn’t think
Because I was exhausted and on edge
Because I’d been drinking (ALT LYRIC FOR KIDS: "Felt like I was sinking"
Because I can be mean
I was reckless and selfish
Because I thought I could get away with it


Because I’m in pain
I wish I could undo it
Because I hurt him
Because I lost her trust
Because I let them down
I was self-destructive
That’s not who I am
It’s not who I want to be

Oh bring down my walls of defensiveness and self-righteousness
Help me to stay humble



from Attitude of Gratitude, track released September 2, 2021
Lyrics from Mishkan HaNefesh: Yom Kippur published by CCAR Press

Music by Jay Rapoport
Copyright Maxfun Music 2019 (ASCAP), all rights reserved

Vocals: Rachel Mylan & Jay Rapoport
Wurlitzer, Piano, Hammond B3 Organ: Jay Rapoport
Bass, Guitars, Mellotron, Backing Vocals: Zach Singer
Drums: Paul Pinon

Rachel Mylan recorded by Josh Goldberg at Kosher Style Records in Los Angeles, CA
Jay Rapoport recorded by Andy Shoemaker & Jason Schmidt at Rax Trax in Chicago, IL
Zach Singer recorded at Star Guitar Records in Austin, TX
Paul Pinon recorded in Austin, TX

Graphic Design by Rick Lupert
Executive Consultant Cantor Ross Wolman

Produced, arranged & mixed by Zach Singer at Star Guitar Records in Austin, TX


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Jay Rapoport Chicago, Illinois

Jay Rapoport, RJE takes Jewish values and texts and transforms them into “Ruach Rock”, a catchy piano-pounding style influenced by Ben Folds and Billy Joel. In 2020 Jay appeared on the Disney Holiday Singalong, defeated his former student on “Who Knows One?” and received a Covenant Foundation grant to compose the theme song for the Jewish Education Center of Cleveland’s “La-bri’ut” curriculum. ... more

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